Lu:Do u think there is still some reason to love me?I think there is not.
My friend was drunk tonight. Puked a lot. She fells so bad. Cause she wants to ask a question to the one she loves. She wants to ask if he missed her. Why ?why not just ask him. I told her. Ask! Say it!why not !is there something worse than what u are going through right now??! Ask!Ask him!?
Actually,I was just like her too. These days ,I am thinking that if we should continue this relationship. Don't get me wrong. When I am saying this I am not do not love you anymore. It's right the apposite. I love u so bad. I just want to know what u are thinking about me. Do you think the relationship is a burden for u ?Just tell me. Don't hide your feelings. I don't care if I will feel so bad. It doesn't matter. Just tell me ur real thoughts....
love you. Good day.
Lee:Burden?? Come on?
Hard?? Of course, i told you that its gonna be like that. I know me at the army have no at all...
I told you that i dont want anyone to suffer cause of me, and i knew that 4 month is a long time for such a short relationship...
Girl, i want you. To see you again, feel you again.
At least now. You know that if i could of see you right now i would of done it.
I hate the fact that i make you feel like that.
While im busy and have no time to think at all you are studying and thinking. Whats makes it harder for you.
I understand that its hard and hurt.
Im sorry.
But please dont suffer for my sake. If you cannot bear it just dont. Cut me out of your life.
I told you before, im traveling and falling in love with people but understand that i have to continue my journey...
I promised that we will meet again, and as soon as i can...
Thank you for being honest with me.
I feel like what ive just wrote is a mess, but that was instant reaction.
I do miss you!
No reason to love you??? What are you talking about?? What are the reasons to love someone at all?!?!?
Lee:Probably good night
Lee:call me when u can
Lu:The shittiest thing for me is not the feeling of missing u dear,not the distance of us as well,don't feel sorry, I can wait.
The shittiest thing is I found I started losing u and I can't do nothing but see it? ?
The death of the affection.
Affection.? Man creates it. so man can control its "life ".But how?
Sometimes I do hope u just leave me behind,cause U deserve to do so to a girl who far away from u ,and can't do nothing good for u,in other words--me.
Maybe I just don't want to see the end of ur affection.Maybe I just don't want to have hope. I don't want to build my hopes up. There is no fear of losing if u never have it.The proper thing u should do when u start being afraid of losing is let it go in advance .so I want to leave you now.we can be more than friends but not boy friend and girl friend. I don't need your promise,I don't need you have responsibility for me. I don't want to be selfish. Visit me when you can.Talk to me when you want. I will threat you just like before . Nothing will change. I will still miss you as before,love you as before.
I love you so bad,but I want a break-up. It's sounds weird isn't it?
we are the same person,all of us don't want to hurt anyone.But The good personality of u and me do bring me some trouble.u merely reply me few words and seems never to strat a conversation on ur own.so I can't avoid thinking if u don't love me anymore.(now I know I was overthinking,u was just busy and tired..)I was suffering merely cause of myself
why u love me?am I losing the part u like?what else I can do to save the relationship?surly,if I do nothing ,just let it be ,it will die sooner or later.
But what else I can do ,at my age?I really can't find out what else I can do...I can't do other than what I am.
I ask myself why I love you and which will make me don't love u anymore. The answer is I don't know and nothing.
Shouldn't I have paid too much care of lasting the relationship?
I want to be my myself，not merely the one u like
Have nothing,have nothing to lose,have nothing to fear
I don't wanna fear it either just like u
But I can't stop
U are the one I never want to lose
Unfortunately it's exactly the reason I want you to go
I can't bear the fear anymore
I can't bear the fear drives me to change into the one u like anyone
Change into the one you like is the only thing I know which can last our relationship.But I don't know what should I be.and I don't want to be other one not myself
I don't want to be selfish
But when I have written all of them, I realized how selfish I am
I am the one who always chasing perfection
People always say Love someone do not need a reason.But actually it's not like that. Or how to explain the end of a relationship,the death of affection?Still no reason? When u don't love him anymore,there is always at least a reason which led to that situation. Thus love or don't love someone. There must be at least a reason
