Every time I get drunk, my mother always blames me strictly. Today is no exception. During lunchtime, she said the same words again in front of many relatives, which I could not bear anymore and finally left the dinning table furiously.
I understand she cares about me, but I have my own concern, too. Honestly speaking, I am a bit addicted to alcohol, but I am absolutely not a drunkard. In fact, I always control the input of liquor, especially eating outside with friends. Until now, each time I become drunk only for my father’s security. People often propose a toast with my father one by one, and he never declines. It is a common sense that even if a man can drink a lot, he is still unable to resist a crowd of people. Considering that, I often exchange toasts with other people in advance, hoping it could relieve father’s burden. Nearly each time I am drunk I call my father loudly. Only after hearing his respond clearly and making sure he is all right, I dare to close my eyes without worrying.
I know this is harmful to me, and I have thought about how I can prevent this result from repeating. Unfortunately, there seems no solution. People sitting at the same table do not do wrong, because most they merely want to show their friendliness and are not prone to liquor my father up. My father also should not be criticized, since refusing a toast is impolite. Am I incorrect? I do not think so, as I simply wish I could protect my father.
It is just like a dilemma I could not resolve now. I think the only one potential resolution is to achieve spectacular success, because I have noticed when a senior official or a extremely successful businessman tend to stop drinking, there is no one daring to raise up wine glasses again. As a result, whenever I sober up, I tell myself to keep studying hard and advancing my career until one day when I could say no to a toast straightforwardly.
